Don't get stuck in today when dreaming and building for tomorrow.

Have you ever had one of those days where no matter what you do, where you put yourself, or who you talk to you can't get away from your own negative thoughts?  I had one this week and I thought I had hit the wall going 150 mph.  My mind had convinced me that my business was going nowhere, I had no friends, I was letting my family down, and worst of all I was being kicked off Team Laffalot.

Okay, so how incredibly insecure does that all sound.  Unfortunately in the moment it felt very real and as though there was nothing in this world that I could do right or even attempt to make a difference.  Then the most miraculous thing happened, I picked up the phone and  reached out to a friend. This was progress for me. I was brought up to not share when things weren't going so well.  I finished the day (faking my way through it) and finally  I went to bed.  When I woke up the feeling was gone. It had disappeared as quickly as it had come on.  I got up, got dressed, and picked up my colleague and headed off to my first business meeting of the day.   Perrin got in the car and immediately said I looked great, I smiled a little smile to say thanks and somewhere inside something major had shifted and I was no longer stuck in the mud of self doubt, fear, and negativity.

I wish I could say that there was something that set me off in thinking that everything I was doing was wrong and heading nowhere but looking back over the week there was nothing.  Just a low moment where my mind was urging me to give up on my dreams of wanting to be more and do more with my life than just the same old same old.  I do know what helped to shift me out of the mud and get back on track in believing in my dream and knowing that it could be done.  It was a call made out of desperation to my very best friend, sharing how incredibly sad I was and that I couldn't be who I wanted to be.  It was in the moment of sharing out loud that my cloud of negativity and doubt began to dissipate.  Oh I still felt the sadness after getting off the phone with her but Sue provided an amazing voice of reason to say "this is just one day, one moment. Life changes in an instant and this will too!"

I remember building our family house on Gerrish Island. My brother cleared the land, poured the foundation,  and raised the walls of the house.  In the beginning there was a lot of mud and it seemed that no matter what we did the mud kept holding back our progress.  Some days it took sheer determination to keep moving forward  to get the house built.  Sure enough month after month the house took shape and before we knew it we were moving in!  Stay on track with your dreams and don't let one day stuck in the mud prevent you from working towards your ultimate goal.